July 11, 2012
Nothing worked. No matter what I tried, I simply couldn’t relax enough to sleep. So I leaned over and picked up my iPad to write this post.
I’m too excited! Earlier today, I wrote 22 pages of my feature length screenplay. I was so close to finishing but I had run out of time. It had to wait until tomorrow. I went to bed and watched a documentary on The New York Times thinking it would be interesting but not enough to keep me awake. It backfired as I started thinking about the possibilities of this blog when it returns.
It didn’t matter what I tried. I was wide awake. So I grabbed my iPad and started writing this:
More than anything, I just can’t wait to type Fade Out tomorrow. It means more to me than any project I’ve ever worked on. Just over a month ago, I decided to test myself and see if I could truly commit to screenwriting and screenwriting alone. Tomorrow proves that I can and that’s a big deal. I put so much pressure on myself over the last few years and never stopped to fully appreciate how much I love to write movies. Tomorrow is going to be so much fun.
I’ve already set an alarm. 7 AM. That’s 8 hours from now. 8 solid hours would be perfect but it’s like Christmas Eve! Every time I close my eyes I see white pages full of action and dialogue. I see the final page. I see FADE OUT.
Tomorrow is the big day. I’m going to be able to tell people I finished my new screenplay. I’m going to be able to read it start to finish. I get to start the rewriting process. I get to fine tune my story. I get to write.
I couldn’t be more pumped. Part of me is thinking I should just get out of bed and finish it now. I could work on it all night and not have to deal with this. I don’t have to toss and turn wondering how it will all come together. I can get up right now! But I shouldn’t…
… The point of my Summer of Screenwriting is to find a balance between my career, my personal life and my writing. I have other missions to accomplish besides my script tomorrow so I need to sleep. I just need to figure out a way to calm myself down, forget how important tomorrow is and relax.
So I’ll begin by saving this post, shutting down my iPad and closing my eyes.
Tomorrow, I finish my screenplay.
It took a while to finally relax and close my eyes that night. I was so excited to write the final moments of my movie. All I could think about was typing Fade Out and how much it meant to me.
That was over 3 months ago and I find myself writing something new and experiencing the same feelings all over again. I’m no where close to finishing but I desperately want to get to end and feel proud all over again. Until then, I get to work on my screenplay tomorrow.